~NEW PLACE~

Here I am..Northern part of Peninsular Malaysia. New place, new environment. Well, nothing much to say except that I'am bored to death here.

episod sebuah duka

Lagi 2 malam..dan kemudiannya.. aku sendiri.

~sepi tanpa suara~

sepi itu diam
sepi itu sunyi
sepi itu tanpa suara

hari-hariku bingit
hari-hariku pening
hari-hariku lelah

adakalanya aku mahu sepi
adakalanya aku mahu diam
adakalanya aku mahu lari dari pening ini

dan kini bila aku mendapatnya
mengapa aku resah?
mengapa aku gusar?

aku rindukan kebisingan itu!!!

I'm Scared

How do I start this? I'll leave the love of my life and the soul of my world in less than a fortnight. I'm stunned, blur, sad, confused and top of all, I'm scared. Have you ever feel the same? How to get rid from all these ?

Why am I scared? I"m scared of a change. Life without them would left me in a misery. I'll miss their laugh, smile, cry and everything. I would definitely miss some new skills develop by the little one. I would definitely miss the good morning and night kiss from my other half. I would definitely miss the massage from that small hands. I would definitely miss everything!!!

For an absolute reason, I believe I would see them at least twice a month. It is not a long wait (as mentioned by some people), yet I would be lonely after work. Can I manage that feeling of being alone after few years living with them? I don't know. And that's made me scared too.

I'm scared.